I joined my college swim team and somehow became the person half of them figured themselves out with.

Bear with me because there's some background here that matters 😭

I figured out I was bi before I got to college and I'm pretty open about it, which apparently makes me interesting to a lot of people who have been sitting with questions they never had a safe person to ask. I joined the swim team this year and I am OBSESSED with these girls. Like the most beautiful group of humans I have ever been in a room with and we spend a significant portion of our time together in swimsuits which is its own situation entirely 😅

They found out I was bi naturally, just came up in a group chat conversation one night, and almost overnight girls who had been friendly before started finding reasons to be around me specifically. Asking me questions about being with girls, what it was like, whether I thought about them. Asking to room with me on away meets.

I am a helper by nature 😇

The first time was my roommate at an away meet in November. We'd been lying in the dark for a while talking about nothing and then about everything and then she got quiet and I could feel her thinking from across the room. She asked what it felt like when a girl touched you, and she wasn't asking to learn something, she was asking because she already knew the answer and needed someone else to say it first.

I told her to come sit with me.

She crossed the room and sat on the edge of my bed and I could feel how nervous she was, nervous in that way where your body has already decided something your mouth hasn't caught up to yet. I pushed her hair back and kissed her and she made a small sound against my mouth like something had been confirmed.

I took my time. Ran my hands over her slowly, her waist, her ribs, learning what made her breathing change. Got her shirt off and my mouth on her chest and she grabbed the sheets and tried to stay quiet because the walls were thin and the girls next door were definitely still awake. I got my hand between her thighs and she was already soaking through her underwear before I'd done anything at all, wet enough that I could feel it through the fabric, and she made this small shocked sound like her own body had surprised her.

I pulled her underwear aside and got my fingers on her properly and she bit down on her own hand to stay quiet. Took my time working her open, slow, reading every sound she made, and when she was wet enough and trembling enough I got two fingers inside her and kept my thumb on her clit and felt her completely fall apart. She came with her face buried in my shoulder trying desperately not to be loud and grabbed my wrist and held my hand exactly where it was for a long time after, like she wasn't ready for it to be over.

She cried a little after, the good kind, like something she'd already known had just been confirmed out loud for the first time.

After that it became a known thing on the team without anyone saying it explicitly. Girls would find reasons to be alone with me, study sessions that turned into something else, late nights in the training facility, away meets where we always somehow ended up in the same room. Some of them just wanted to be touched, some of them wanted to use their mouths on me and needed someone patient enough to guide them, which I am 😌, and one of them asked me to talk her through touching herself while I watched and that was a specific intimacy I was not prepared for and I think about it constantly 😭

By the end of the year I'd been with more than half the team in some capacity. A few of them have since come out, one of them is now dating a girl from another team and texted me a photo with just the word FINALLY and I screenshotted it immediately.

I love this team SO much. Best decision I ever made joining. The sport is great too I guess lol 😭