Why not join me on my journey as I learn how to masturbate? 18F

To begin, I'd like to tell you a little about me.-I have pictures of my body on my profile but I am 18 years old and am a first-year uni student. I'm white, very pale, 5'3 with brown hair and blue eyes. I started posting on Reddit as a way for me to explore sexually, as a complete virgin and bi-curious. Recently, I've become a little frustrated with my real-life progress. I'm a little embarrassed to admit that I have read a large amount of fanfiction, doujin and watched a lot of porn and yet I still struggle to do more than clit stimulation.

I have used my finger and it genuinely left me panting. I felt an incredible wave of pleasure course through me, leaving my face flushed. I just stared at my finger in shock, it was a whole other level that I'd never felt. My ultimate goal is to be able to take my medium toy (I believe 1 inch wide) as I can only fit the tip of the head without feeling a little discomfort. That's why I'll be beginning this journey, with my goal today to cum with two fingers.

To the main event ;) ------

To ease myself in, I had a warm shower and shaved. I read to explore my body to get into the mood so I lightly stroked my waist, cupping my breast as my fingertips brushed up my thigh. Not yet touching anything completely, just enjoying as the warm water trickled down my body, between my legs and over my stiffening chest. I already had a couple of fantasies in mind, not quite sure what fantasy I wanted to explore today. Once I was fairly wound up I stepped out of the shower and put my hair up in my towel, letting the rest of my body air dry. I had forgotten to close my curtains and so I ended up crawling to close them haha.

With my hair and body dry I climbed into my bed, only my fairy lights on. Slowly, I settled back into caressing my body, finding myself imagining what it'd feel like for larger, rougher hands to take the place of mine. What it'd feel like for a big experienced hand to glide along my waist and hips, turning in to stroke my inner thigh as the other came up to just tease under my breasts. I could now feel a pulsing heat coming from down there and I'm really embarrassed to say I think by that point I was already so wound up that I could feel my wetness trickle down. By that point, I could hardly hold back and decided to start teasing myself fully. Feeling both my hand brush against my crotch and my other hand pinch my nipple made my body jolt in a pleasure I hadn't expected.

Breathy pants left my throat as my fingers made small circles up and down my clit, feeling just how wet I'd already become. My index finger poked at my entrance and with a gentle rub of my clit I slowly pushed it in, slipping out a quiet moan as I felt myself clench around my finger. It feels incredibly soft. When I begin to pull out my finger I felt my stomach clench. I moved my other hand down to stroke my clit as I attempted to gain a pace. The angle is a little awkward but the tingling in my clit and clench in my stomach soon makes me forget.

My mind drifted to the image of a man standing shirtless before my bed, a dangerous glint in his eyes, amused as he watches my clumsy fingers trying to pleasure myself. The image causes me to let out a gasp as I feel myself clench around my finger, reminding myself of today's goal. Wetting my middle finger I also poked it at my entrance. This time it took a little push to go in, feeling a little uncomfortable but I didn't cease rubbing my clit. Once I was up to the middle of my finger I started to pump it, in and out.

It took several moments before I felt a familiar but strong tingling in my stomach, encouraging my pace. My mind drifted to the man slowly climbing onto my bed, demanding me to not stop as he settled with his head between my legs. Imagining his dark gaze meeting mine, his tongue takes the place of my fingers. I felt myself climbing and could only mutter quietly "I'm cumming, I'm cumming," as my legs trembled. My head flew back as my pace became frantic, feeling myself clenching between each pulse, the orgasm rocking through my body. I pulled out my fingers and felt my crotch continue to clench with each pulse of pleasure. I was breathing heavily, and my legs twitched. After a while I sat up and proudly looked at my fingers, I'd been able to reach another milestone.

I hope you enjoyed! I got a little excited while writing so i hope it doesn't come off too story like. If you have any tips for me to up my experience or writing I'd love to hear them! :) Next time I'll stick with two fingers however I'm thinking maybe trying a different position as I've only ever done on my back, or maybe use my vibrator. Thanks for reading, look forward to part 2!