How I (36) went from being ultra reserved to becoming my husbands secret slut

The back story on me starting a Reddit account is I’ve always been reserved when it comes to sex and nudity. When I was younger, I was at a uni party and engaged in fellatio with a with a much older guy. Long story short, I had been set up and his friend was hiding in the room filming me in the act. I made him delete it and threaten to go the police if it somehow ever surfaced.

Since then I was generally reserved - sex under covers and even wore an unbuttoned shirt over my bikini at the beach. I relaxed a bit after having kids, particularly after breast feeding both kids and the amount of family, friends and public that would have got a glimpse of my nipples.

18 months ago while on holidays, my husband and I were enjoying cocktails in the adults only area of the resort while the kids were exploring with a Nanny. There were a few other women either in the pool or bathing in the sun topless which I caught hubby on a couple of occasions sneaking a bit of a peak. So I told hubby I also wanted to remove my top to gauge his reaction. His jaw dropped in shock and I had to repeat what I wanted to do. He was very excited…

So I slid in the pool and paddle around for a bit before un-clipping the back of my bikini. My heart was racing as I bobbed up and down in the water with the cups of my bikini detaching from my breasts as the water splashed in between the material and DD sized breast - I could feel my nipples stiffening as a looked up and could see hubby wiping the drool from his chin.

I then took a deep breath and ripped the bikini top off and threw it up to my husband. The thrill and feeling of a free women was amazing. I paddled around in the pool for 5 or so minutes with the completely exposed, erect nippled breast floating around below the surface of the water.

I then decided to take the next step and get out of the water and lay on the sun lounge. As walked up the stairs of the pool I felt overwhelmed with anxiety thinking the whole pool area and everyone in their rooms were starring at me. I took a quick glance around and noticed no one seemed phased or had their cameras recording me - it was ok.

Now relaxed in the sun lounge with hubbies eyes glued on me, he said “Are you ready to get up close this someone? I feel like another drink…” as he turned the flag up on the back of my chair. With a few minutes a young islander guy presented at the foot of my chair and asked what we would like. I sat up and gave him our order while trying to make eye contact with a guy who was looking in every direction except me.

This started a daily routine for the rest of the holidays - with what started as me wanting to explore being topless with no one looking, to me scanning the area hoping someone was taking a cheeky peak and giving me attention.

Since that holiday I feel like I unlocked a spicy door within me, and I am making up for all those years of being ultra reserved and can’t get enough of the free me. I used to occasionally masturbate to relieve stress and tension when I knew hubby would not catch me and every blind in the house closed. I now masturbation to feminist porn, have the blinds up hoping the postman may catch a glimpse of me, and msg hubby to tell him what I’m doing, or send him a videos of what I’m doing. Our relationship has never been stronger.

I now have two items on my bucket lists I want to achieve.

1. Post some nude content (photo) online; and

2. Sell one adult content (video) online if I still feel comfortable and get a following for point one.

I joined Reddit after some research as it was recommended I could fulfil my first item on one of the many communities and I think I am ready to go.

I’d love to hear from members and my small following how they recommended I could achieve my second item.