I'm M24 and I'm in a long distance relationship. My girlfriend moved to a different state after an year of us being together. Its been 18 months now and we've only managed to meet four times since she's gone. Before we were together she knew about my college friend who I had a crush on before meeting her. She wasn't a person I wanted to be in a relationship with but my crush wad mostly based on her looks and physicality. She took great care of herself, her body, farce and hair were all perfect. Maybe this was the reason that she'd never settle with one guy for more than 3 months while I knew her during my college days. She only got to know about my crush months after she got into a relationship herself with a guy who she really loved, most of us thought that it was the end of her string of flings with random men.
Anywho, I was getting sexually frustrated because not only was my girlfriend away but it has been two months since we've come on a video call or had phone sex which we had to do as a means of keeping things hot. They were barely working for me but the fact that they were not there anymore just left me with nothing. I shared about this with my guy friends just to vent but I guess that this got around somehow, maybe through their girlfriends, but it landed on the ears of my friend from college. She texted me a few weeks back and we talked for 5 hours straight at night, the longest we must've ever talked. She told me a few days after that she broke up with her boyfriend a while back. I thought that maybe she's back on her routine of taking a new guy every three months.
This led to her asking about my relationship and I only shared the good stuff. I'm pretty sure she was already aware about my frustrations because she would often ask me about anything "interesting" or "the hottest thing" my girlfriend has done for me. And she asked about this 5 times if I remember. I kept dodging the question and basically told her to not ask about it again. She got upset about it and left me on read, I kept apologising but she won't text back. I now had no one to talk to at this point.
I did not hear from her for the next two days but she randomly texted me at 2 am one night and asked me why I was still online. I told her I was bored and upset. It was Friday night so I had no work the following day. She asked me if I was alone and I said yes. She called me. We usually talked on chat but she called me and we talked for an hour. She was incredibly nice and warm. She sent me a picture of her in a sundress and asked me if she looked nice in it and whether she should post it. I told her yes and then it started. She started asking me what I liked about her, her body, her hair, makeup etc. I kept listing off things and then she changed her tone.
She told me she knew that I had a crush on her in college and I was sexually frustrated. She then talked to me in a lusty voice and told me that I should lay down on the bed and close my eyes. She then narrated me everything she wanted me to do her and it felt as if she was whispering into my ear. She told me she'd let me take out all my anger and frustration on her slutty body. She told me to not think of anything romantic or loving, "keep that for her if you want, I want you to think of the worst things possible that you want my body to endure from you. I'm not even joking, you can slap and choke me. I won't even mind if you would tie me to your bed all day long, treat me like a pet and make me your slave. Everything you have against her, take it all out on me"
She was moaning and taking deep breaths on the call while she said all this. She ended her call by telling me that if I call or text her again, that means I'm in, if not then I shouldn't bother at all. She said if I agree to this then I can do all the romantic and sappy stuff with my girlfriend but I won't ever do anything sexual with her ever again. I never expected this to happen and it still feels like a fever dream. I'm in the worst dilemma of my life. I dont want something primal like my needs to ruin something that me and girlfriend built for so long. If anything else happens then I would share it here, I would love to get some advice too.
Thank you for reading all this.