My best friend's boyfriend was too big to fuck me and I'm still thinking about it.

There is some background here that you need and I'm going to keep it short, my best friend's boyfriend has been attractive to me for over a year and I have done absolutely nothing about it because she is my best friend and I am a good person, also she would 100% clock it if I tried anything, so it has just been living in the back of my head quietly for fourteen months. Until last weekend lol.

Late birthday celebration, fancy airbnb, jacuzzi, the three of us, and a level of alcohol that I would describe as more than sufficient.

We got in the jacuzzi after dinner and honestly it started the way these things always start when you put two girls who are comfortable with each other and one very attractive man into warm water with enough drinks in them, which is slowly and then all at once. She and I have always been touchy with each other in a way that's never needed a label and with the alcohol and the warm water and the low light she pulled me close at some point and kissed me and I kissed her back and it was soft and warm and her mouth tasted like whatever cocktail we'd been drinking and I had my hands in her wet hair and for a second I genuinely forgot there was a third person in the jacuzzi at all.

Then I remembered.

He was watching us with this expression that I felt in my chest and significantly lower than my chest and I could feel his eyes on us and I got wetter from that alone which is information I was not ready to process at that moment lol. She pulled back from me and looked at him and smiled and then she was kissing him and I was watching that happen from about two feet away in a jacuzzi feeling extremely things about it.

The three of us found a rhythm after that, hands moving under the water, mouths moving, her kissing me and then him and then sort of both of us at once, his hands finding their way between the two of us in the warm water and every time they got close to me I felt my pussy clench and had to actively remind myself to keep breathing like a normal person. I was SOAKING, embarrassingly soaking, and not from the jacuzzi, and the way his hands felt moving through the water toward me was making it significantly worse and I was having a very internal experience about all of this while trying to look like I was fine.

We got out eventually and she caught my eye and tilted her head toward the bedroom in a way that required no further explanation and I followed because there was no world in which I was not following.

And that is when I saw it properly for the first time.

I have slept with a reasonable number of people, I have seen some things, I thought I had a solid understanding of what was out there in the world and I was NOT prepared, like at ALL. He was huge, thick in a way that I looked at and felt my pussy go from already soaking to actively dripping, like my body made a decision completely independently of my brain and the decision was yes please immediately. I have always thought of myself as a size queen but I think that title requires some practical evidence and I may have been operating on theory this whole time lol.

She was touching him while I watched and I could see how wet she already was and I thought okay so she handles this regularly, she is genuinely built different, god bless her because I don't know how.

When he pressed his cock against me I was so wet I could feel my own wetness on him before he'd even done anything and I was dripping down my thighs and shaking a little already just from the anticipation of it and the weight of him pressing there. She got her fingers inside me first, working me open slowly while I lay there gripping the sheets and trying to breathe, and even after that when he tried to push inside me the stretch was something I was absolutely not ready for that evening. I could take the head, barely, and just THAT was enough to make my eyes roll back and my thighs clamp shut around him and I came embarrassingly fast just from the desperation and the fullness of that alone, my pussy clenching around just his tip while my whole body completely fell apart.

I felt bad about it after lol like apologetic

So while she was in the bathroom I pulled him aside and got on my knees and took his cock in my hands and just looked at it for a second because I needed a moment and I think I deserved one, and then I took as much of him in my mouth as I could manage and worked the rest with both hands and he came down my throat while I looked up at him and I swallowed all of it and felt very good about how the evening had ultimately concluded.

I don't know how she takes that regularly, I have my questions. I also have a standing request to find out in person again as soon as possible and I am not even a little bit ashamed of that.