My best friend fucked me like a stranger and I haven't been the same since

Kai has been my best friend for almost two years, like ACTUALLY platonic, no tension, no flirting, just two depressed people who bonded over sad playlists and sitting in silence together when neither of us had energy to talk. He'd just gotten out of this long relationship and I was going through it mentally so we just kind of found each other. He's tall, lean, has these dark eyes and messy hair but I literally never thought about him like that because he was just Kai, my safe person, the guy I'd fall asleep next to on his couch watching documentaries about cults at 3am

So two nights ago I was at his apartment, his roommates were all gone for the weekend, we were on the floor listening to music and sharing his speaker going back and forth with songs and I got up to queue something on his laptop and before I could step away he grabbed my wrist and just... looked at me

And I swear to god this was not the Kai I knew because the Kai I knew has never once made me feel anything below the waist but the way he was looking at me made my whole body go hot, and then he pulled me toward him and kissed me, deep, tongue, his hand on the back of my neck and I just... melted, I was so wet so fast it was embarrassing lol

He stood up and pushed me against the wall, lifted both my arms above my head and held my wrists with one hand and his other hand went from my jaw down my neck down my chest and he pulled my shirt up and over my head and tossed it somewhere, then tugged my shorts and underwear down in one pull and I was just standing there naked against his wall while he was still fully dressed and that did something to me 😭, he started licking and biting my nipples and I had to bite my lip because his roommate's girlfriend was in the apartment next door and the walls are THIN

Then he slid two fingers into my pussy and I was so wet he just slipped in, I was shaking against the wall trying not to moan while he fingered me and sucked on my tits and I came on his hand in like two minutes which is humiliating but also I hadn't had sex in months and his fingers were doing something different

He dropped to his knees, put my right leg over his shoulder and ate me out against the wall, tongue on my clit, licking fast then slow then sucking on it while his fingers were inside me and I was dripping down his hand and I came again and my legs almost gave out

Then he walked me to his bed, pulled his sweats down and his cock was... yeah lol, long, thick, veiny, I did NOT know Kai was hiding that, I dropped to my knees and gave him the sloppiest blowjob of my life, licking his balls while I stroked him, drooling all over his dick, and he grabbed my hair and yanked my head back and said "look at me" and his voice was so low and commanding and this was NOT my best friend this was someone else entirely and I was staring up at him with tears in my eyes and spit on my chin and I swallowed everything he gave me

He bent me over near the window (I have a thing about almost getting caught and he KNOWS this) and slid inside me from behind slow at first, stretching me out, and I could hear how wet I was with every thrust, then he grabbed my hips and fucked me hard and I came again with my face pressed into the wall trying not to scream

We fucked all night, I lost count of positions, he threw me on the bed for missionary with my legs on his shoulders, then I rode him while he bit my nipples and slapped my face and said shit I'm not gonna type here lmaoo, he came inside me multiple times and at one point scooped what was dripping out and put his fingers in my mouth and I tasted both of us and I just... yeah

He walked me to my car in the morning, we shared a cigarette in his parking lot and he goes "next time pick the scenario, whatever you want" and I haven't stopped thinking about it since, I keep typing messages to him and deleting them because what do you even say to your best friend after he fucks you like you're nobody he knows and you loved every second of it