I let my friend's boyfriend fuck me in exchange for going down on her and I have zero regrets

I want to be upfront that I set this up for entirely selfish reasons and it worked out better than I planned.

My friend has a boyfriend. They've been together a couple of years, happy, solid. I like him a lot. He has always, in a very well-managed and respectful way, made it clear he finds me attractive, which I've filed away and never done anything with.

I have also always wanted to go down on my friend. She's straight, or straight enough that it was never a realistic possibility, and I made my peace with that. I'm not in love with her, I just think she's genuinely stunning and I've always been curious and I stopped letting myself think about it.

Until she mentioned one night when we were a few drinks in that she'd thought about it before. With me specifically. Just as a thing she'd occasionally thought about.

I thought about this for approximately thirty seconds.

I told her I'd do it if she let her boyfriend join in.

She looked at me.

"Like," she said, "join in with us, or."

"With me," I said. "While I'm with you."

She texted him from the couch. He was there in twenty minutes which told me everything I needed to know about how long he'd been thinking about this particular situation.

She lay back and I had this one second where I just looked at her and thought about every time I'd told myself this wasn't going to happen. Then I got my face between her thighs and stopped thinking about anything else entirely.

She was already wet before I even touched her which felt like important information. I started slow, tongue flat and broad, learning her before going for anything specific, and she made a sound that was part surprise and part something else and her hips moved toward me without her deciding to move them. I found her clit and stayed there, slow circles, and she grabbed the sheets with both hands.

I've gone down on people before. This felt different in a way I can't explain except that I'd been wanting to do this for years and the reality of it was better than I'd let myself imagine and I was soaking wet just from being there.

Her boyfriend got behind me while I was doing this. I felt him press against the back of my thighs, his hands running along my hips, and then he pushed inside me slowly and I made a sound into her that she must have felt because she made one straight back. Being fucked while your face is buried in your best friend's pussy while she's gripping the sheets above you is a specific kind of overwhelming I was genuinely unprepared for. He started moving and I kept my mouth on her and everything became this impossible feedback loop where I couldn't separate what I was feeling from what I was causing.

I came first, hard, clenching around him, face still buried, making sounds that were muffled and completely undignified and I did not care at all.

She came maybe two minutes after that. Both hands in my hair suddenly, thighs locking around my head, and the sounds she made went straight into whatever part of my brain stores things I'll be thinking about for years.

He finished inside me shortly after. I felt all of it and stayed where I was until everything stopped.

We lay there after. All three of us. Nobody said anything for a while which felt correct.

I've been thinking about who got the better end of that deal ever since and I cannot work it out. I got what I wanted. He definitely got what he wanted. She had two people extremely focused on her simultaneously which seems objectively good for everyone involved.

I think we all won.

I think I want to negotiate again.