I let my friend watch me masturbate and jerk off on to my pussy

I've been seeing this guy Julian for a while now. "Seeing". I don't even know if that's the right word. We're not dating exactly, but we are something. He's patient with me in a way that no one else has been, and I don't think he knows how much that means to me. I'm a virgin, and i'm pretty committed to waiting until marriage. Religion and all that. So when I say "patient" that is what I mean.

He came over on last Saturday afternoon. My roommate was gone for the weekend and I told him that when I texted him and he said "Do you want company?" and I said yes.

We sat on my couch and drank some tea and just talked about nothing for a while. His knee was touching mine and I was hyper aware of it the way I'm always hyper aware of any part of him that's touching any part of me. It seriously makes me excited lol. I think i'm just super sensitive.

"Can I ask you something?" he said at one point.

"Yeah." I said.

He went on to tell me about how he had an idea for something we could do together. He started by telling me that he was fully respectful of what my limits are, and about the fact that I am waiting, but he told me he had an idea for something that we could to together that would still be fun in the meantime.

"I've been thinking about something," he continued. "And you can say no. Obviously. You can always say no."

"Just tell me."

"What would you think about… About masturbating together?"

My whole face went all red and I covered my mouth with my hand.

"Like. Right now?" I managed to say. God i'm so awkward when it comes to sex stuff idk why I think it is just how I was raised.

"Whenever you want. I just. I want to see you. The way you look when you feel good. I think it would be hot."

I am not gonna lie, I have thought about this before. In my head when I'm alone at night with my vibrator I think about him watching me and me watching him and it makes everything more intense and I've never told him that because how do you tell someone that. Awkward lmao.

"I don't know if I can" I said. "I want to. I think. I'm just. Nervous."

He smiled. Not a big smile. A small patient one that made it clear to me that he wasn't going anywhere and there was no clock running and I could take as long as I needed. That kind of smile is the reason I trust him.

"How about this" he said. "You lie down. I'll sit right here. And you can close your eyes if you want. And if at any point you want to stop you just say stop and I'll look away."

I lay down on the couch. My head was near his lap and my feet were at the other end and I was wearing a sundress and I could feel the fabric against me and I was already aware of how turned on I was.

He put his hand on my forehead, just resting there, his thumb brushing against my hairline. "Close your eyes" he said softly.

I closed them. I could feel the couch cushion under my back and the warmth of his leg near my head and his hand on my forehead.

I wondered what I looked like to him right now, lying here with my eyes closed and my dress hiked up and my hands shaking.

I moved my hand down. Slowly. Over my stomach, over the fabric of my dress, down to the hem. I pulled it up a little. My thighs were bare and I could feel the air on my skin and I hesitated.

"You're beautiful" Julian said quietly. Like an observation.

I moved my hand between my legs. Over my underwear first. Just pressing lightly. I was wet. I could feel it through the fabric and I knew he could probably see it too and that thought made me wetter.

I slipped my hand under. My fingers found the spot that I find every night when I'm alone in my bed and I pressed down and a small sound escaped me. Not a moan exactly. More like a sigh.

"There you go" Julian whispered.

I started rubbing myself in slow circles. The same way I do when I'm alone. My breathing got heavier and I could feel my thighs tensing and relaxing and I was trying to be quiet but every few seconds a sound would leak out, a whimper or a moan.

I forgot he was there for a second. That's not true. I didn't forget. But I stopped performing for him and started just feeling it. My back arched slightly and my free hand gripped the couch cushion and I was moving my fingers faster, pressing harder, and I could feel it building.

"Julian" I whispered. I don't know why I said his name. I just needed to say it.

"I'm here."

I opened my eyes for a second. I saw that his cock was out through the zipper in his shorts and he was stroking himself with the same rhythm that I was rubbing myself. I started watching him and I just felt even wetter than before. It was hot to see him touching himself at the same time as me.

I closed my eyes again and I let go. I stopped trying to control it and my fingers moved fast and sloppy and my hips rocked against my hand and I was making sounds that I would normally be mortified by, little gasps and moans and whimpers, and then the wave crested and I came.

It hit me hard. My whole body tensed and I arched off the couch and my mouth opened and no sound came out for a second and then everything released at once and I moaned and shook and Julian's hand on my forehead never moved.

I opened my eyes and again and I saw that he was stroking himself fast and I got the feeling that he was close to cumming.

"Julian" I moaned. "I want you to cum on my pussy" I whispered to him. I honestly can't believe I said it.

His eyes opened wider and he didn't hesitate. He got into position so that his cock was a few inches away from my pussy lips and the entire time I kept rubbing my clit and I felt it when he came. A few warm spurts of his cum landed on my fingers and I just kept rubbing myself.

I was rubbing his cum into my clit and the feeling of it made me cum again. Even harder this time than the first. I gasped and shook and when my orgasm finally finished I just looked at him in shock at what we had just done.

We showered together after that and he ended up spending the night at my place. I am not on birth control or anything like that so I admit I feel a bit nervous about it, but at the same time it was the first time my pussy has ever come in contact with a guy's cum, and I think I get now why creampies are a thing. It is so hot to think about.

I know this story is probably pretty mild compared to a lot of the stuff that gets written here, but for me it is something crazy. An expansion of my limits. Something new.